Random Solitary Thoughts

Monday, December 31, 2001

Happy New Year!!! A new year... and there's reason to believe... maybe this year will be better than the last... I can't remember... the last thing that you said as you were leaving... how the days go by so fast... Shucks... it's the new year and I still can't get that Long December song outta my head... shucks... I'm one sad case... sheesh.

Spent the new year painting faces and such. Spent the new year stuck in a jam with 150,000 people all trying to get home. Spent the new year at the mamak's eating maggi goreng and mutton soup. Spent the new year trying to stay awake chewing bubble gum while driving two sleepy friends home. Spent the new year shivering in the cold shower pondering last year's events. Spent the new year playing CS till six in the morning. Spent the new year sleeping till one. Spent the new year surfing the net and procastinating against work. Spent the new year deciding that work will have to be done. Spent the new year finishing this blog...

Thoughts from December...
It has been a good year... and I am happy with the way things are... True, some things remain just as bad and sometimes I wish they didn't happen, but wish as I might, these events all lead up to the good ones that eventually take place throughout the year. I had a great year... I had a great time. I always think back and wonder what happened to me when I was young to create such a sadistic and pessimistic person. Now I know... and the only thing I can do is to change for the better... constantly finding faults with myself and changing the best I can. That's life... that's survival... that's love...

2001 was a great year... it meant a lot to me... I finally found new reason to live [yea yea I know it sounds cliche, but it's true]... I found a part of myself which I haven't seen in a long while... I revisited many paths... I grew older... I grew wiser [or so I thought]... Yup, I had a great year...

Sunday, December 30, 2001

I have been procastinating way too much lately... and why are there ants running in between my keyboard keys as I type? Anyway, felt a jolt of reality was in order, so I went to have a try at the X-treme sports area thinghy at Midvalley. Never fallen so much since the last major dance training I attended! But wow... it felt good... now I can forget about entertainment while I mend my broken ego and concentrate on work... life has never been better.

Received a Do-It-Yourself Gundam model from my brother for my birthday a few days back. I now have it poised with a gun in the face of my other gundam model who's on his back begging for mercy. A little touch of inspiration to work on a side project... IF I ever stop procastinating...XP. I shall now have dinner...

Friday, December 28, 2001

My parents were down in KL for a number of days. On one such cheery morning, my mum requested that I follow her to do some weeding at the house. I sleepily agreed, thinking that weeding would probably give me extra brownie points. We reached the house soon enough and I smiled at the small weeds in the 'front' lawn. My mum ushered me to the 'back' lawn where weeds as high as my waist greeted me. The rest is history...

Wednesday, December 26, 2001

Whoopsy doo!!! Someone or something changed the password on my blog account resulting in ten minutes of attempting to get it right and an hour or so of waiting for hotmail to load in order to get the password which I have "forgotten"!

Well, now that the reason behind the delay is settled, it is now time for me to story you bout the happenings of the day.

The Great Asam Laksa Quest
This is the quest to line up to buy asam laksa which Kotak said was really good and that I should try it. Spent one hour waiting in line just for four packets of asam laksa [which is a kind of noodle in sardine soup]. During the long wait, there were about four people ahead of us, and this is their story...

First in line was the kiasu lady. This lady, was no doubt the most 'kiasu' [this term applies to people who are so success oriented, they have to be first at everything] person I have ever seen. She was there lining up way before the stall has arrived. This lady proceeded to waste about 15 minutes of our time by unabling to decide on what she wanted. First she placed a few orders, then proceeded to add to the amount, and then proceeded to add to that as well. And then I think someone came around and asked her to place an order for them, and she did. In the end, she must have bought over 20 packets. Either that, or the lady handling the stall was slow... very slow...
Summary: Place your order and get it over with!!!

Next in line, was a nice elderly lady who knew what she wanted. She took a few seconds and was quickly off to whatever place she came from.
Moral: Be quick about it!!!

Third in line was Mrs. Frisky! This silly woman spent 15 mins trying to figure out that this was an Asam Laksa stall and NOT some McDonalds or Burger King!!! She leisurely took her time asking if the noodles were long or short [yesh... some people are THAT FRISKY!!!] and trying to decide if she wanted them or not. Best thing was, she had been lining up for so long, you would have thought she could at least have made up her mind by then!!! Thanks to her indecisive attitude, up to about 20 people were made to wait 15 minutes longer. Thanks a LOT!!!

Fourth in line was a young lady who kept chatting with a friend who happened to be somewhat related to the 'kiasu' lady! But hen it came to her turn, things went rather fast. So no complaints there.
Comment: Be all that you are... when you're at the front of the line, make it quick!!!

Finally, we were able to order, and what perfect timing, for the guy behind us was ready to order 9 packets!!! This of course paled in comparison with the legend of the 17 packet man. Apparently, some guy once ordered 17 packes to go! Woo hoo!!! Either he has a big family, or his family eats four helpings... Anyhow, we managed to get the deal done within a matter of seconds and was off to eat our bounty!!! I have learnt valuable lessons today...

First off, it always pays to make sure you have a compound parking ticket on display! The fine is not worth it... and your parents finding out is of course a bonus! The local council does not do a good job! They came, they strut, they threatened a poor guy whose family and kids were sitting on the side of the road, and then they left... wonder why we're paying taxes to these losers for... Lining up for asam laksa is only worth it if idiots like the kiasu woman and Mrs. Frisky ain't around. Asam laksa tastes good after an hour of lining up.

Aaahhh... life is bliss...

Monday, December 24, 2001

Tis Christmas!!! A time for cheer, a time of year, where people sit to drink some beer! Okay, that doesn't sound right... but who cares? It is a happy time for everyone!!! I am happy. I feel great! It has been awhile since I've felt this good on Christmas!

Gave my girlfriend her present last night! The expression on her face was priceless!!! Now I realized how much I've been missing all my life! Today was practically the first time in a long while since I've celebrated Christmas, and I must admit, it is a wonderful feeling!!! Now what mischief do I have in store for New Year's Day...?

What Video Game Character Are You? I am a Gauntlet Adventurer.I am a Gauntlet Adventurer.

I strive to improve my living conditions by hoarding gold, food, and sometimes keys and potions. I love adventure, fighting, and particularly winning - especially when there's a prize at stake. I occasionally get lost inside buildings and can't find the exit. I need food badly. What Video Game Character Are You?

Sunday, December 23, 2001

I am suddenly feeling age creeping up. I received a new guitar today. I am happy. I am estatic. I am jumping around the room. I am surfing and hunting down guitar tabs. I played my best game of Battle Realms so far and forgot to save resulting in me having to replay the mission from where I last saved. I am an idiot. I have sketches to do but I don't feel like doing them. I have suddenly developed a rash of mellowness. I have four ulcers in my mouth and might be getting a sore throat if I'm not careful. I have deadlines looming after the holidays but too lazy to work. What am I?

Answer: I am a demented student stuck at the hostel of a very lousy campus with only a day or two before Chritmas and at the age of 21 is feeling extremely 40 for some odd reason with reason to smile despite all the bad things that are happening or will be happening to me.

Sounds odd? It's just me... go figure...XP

On a lighter [and less confusing] note, I watched LOTR twice so far. Wondering, did anyone notice the three stone trolls in the movie? A nice touch, subtle but nice...

P.S. Thanks to you-know-who for the guitar and for everything! You know who you are, and probably some other people know that as well. And to the rest of ya [again, you people know who you are], thanks for everything else that I haven't mentioned here. Man... I'm begining to sound like BIlbo... confusing English and all... maybe it's just my grammar...

Thursday, December 20, 2001

I am back in that hellhole of a campus... Not liking it much, except for the solitary life I'm living without my roommates, which is about the only perk there is so far. The floor can finally be seen. What a miracle. Work is waiting... and I feel so lazy... shucks.

Thursday, December 13, 2001

Muddy tracks on the long road... sigh. Had another rough time in class today... made up for it by watching Monsters Inc. Tired but happy. Completed most of my objectives today. Now I am ready to relax and party... what a life... =)

Wednesday, December 12, 2001

The night is long... and a presentation awaits me as dawn approaches. My desk is stacked up high with sketches. The news is playing on the radio. Another one bites the dust... sheesh... what else is new? The light from my cigarette provide enough light for me to read the small print on the note which the damsel in distress has left me. She had walked in a few minutes ago. A brunette. I've always liked brunettes. "I need a favor..." I remembered hearing her say in her soft husky voice. "What's the favor, and how much are you paying me for it?" I remembered asking her. "I want you to kill my lover..." she had replied. "Where's his picture?" I said. "Here SHE is..." HOLD IT!!! Okay, something went wrong... and I was momentarily shocked at her answer. She left, and I found this note lying on my desk. Now what does it say...? With squinted eyes, I strained my vision to read the words encripted on that piece of paper... it said... "If you are reading this, you must be dreaming! WAKE UP!!!"

Dem... and what a nice dream that was... shucks... okay, no more day dreaming! I had a tiring day! Been out most of the day and was totally out by the end of it! Made the mistake of eating a Curry Bread with Cheese! The mistake was assuming that the bread was covered with cheese and had a curry filling. It turned out to be curry flavoured bread with cheese! I've never had anything so gross... but driven by hunger, I gobbled up three qurters of it before feeling too pukish to continue. Had the final quarter later on, still felt pukish! The Hershey chocolate I bought seemed to help ease the pain a bit. I am never buying fancy bread again!

On a brighter note, I had a Battle Realms multiplayer session earlier. Good game! Reminded me of the old days, when we would just play Starcraft on network... ah... for the old days that time forgot... suddenly I'm feeling nostalgic and mellow... back to work.. back to work!

Tuesday, December 11, 2001

Had a rough time today. Realized why I got what I got for my grades. All because of a "Bell" curve... let me proceed to illustrate the whole disheartening story in black and white technicolour.

Checked my grades a while back. Realized I didn't do as well as I had hoped. Felt bad but thought there should be a good explaination. My group members and I decided to discuss our reasons for not doing well with the lecturers after class. Class went by quite well. Our work was complimented a few times, making us wonder all the more why we didn't get what we should. Still, with the lingering question in mind, we trudged on through class, braving the boring lectures and feelings of letharghy that was swamping those of us who had less than 5 hours of sleep. In the end, we finally had our chance, and we posed the all time dreaded question. "Why did we get what we got?"

Okay, we put it in a more subtle manner, but the meaning was the same. The kindly tutor led us to her office and proceeded to explain to us why we didn't get the grades that we expected. Imagine our horror and shock when she said that our marks were deducted,[giving us an average grade] in order to meet the requirements of the exam "Bell" curve! The kindly tutor then began to explain to us that there can only be "one" 'A' group, and seeing that there was more than one, the exam board proceeded to minus a few marks in order to "prevent" the "Bell" curve from becoming something other than a "Bell".

I learned today that education isn't what it's meant to be. Grades can be bought and pulled. You don't always get what you worked for. Life's unfair. I learnt that students can flunk their finals for being smarter than the lecturer. I've learnt that lecturers can cancel classes to have fancy lunches. I've learnt that no matter how hard you try, someone's always gonna bring you down and make you weep. I've learnt that favors are not remembered, though faults are never forgotten. I've learnt that love can change a person. I've learnt that there is still beauty in this world. I've learnt, most of all... that chocolate should be eaten immediately after purchase as it almost immediately melts in this humid weather... even at night. I've learnt a lot... I'm tired... and I want to rest... May some super all powerful being or force have mercy on the world...

Note: Names and stories altered to protect the individuals involved. This is a community service message.

Monday, December 10, 2001

I have finally understood the basics of HTML... shucks... and to think I edited my first webpage using the very same codes which I forgot so many years later... how embarassing...

Changed the layout a bit, as most of you would have noticed by now. I decided to keep it 'blank' and 'white' for a bit, till I have more time on my hands to add images to the background. But for now, the layout and placements of most of the text are correct. Whew! Took me awhile [I'm a net illiterate] to figure it out, but finally got a decent looking setup.

First day of class... woo hoo! I decided that economics, management, and accounts aren't for me... Kotak, can I bunk over at your place for tutorials? Your mom might be of some assistance!!! =D

I shall now do some sketches before I sleep... and I shall NOT install anymore games!!! They are the work of the devil!!! Sheesh...

Sunday, December 09, 2001


I am amazed that I even found this test. This is my first time online, isn't it great, I figured out this AOL-thing! But I don't quite know how to turn the computer off.

Take the INTERNET-ADDICT Test at Fuali.com!

Yet another online test... luckily I scored rather well in this one... I shall SURVIVE!!!

Ironically... I am back again... updating my blog yet again... does this mean I'm becoming an addict?

Strawberry: 20/100 Pear: 20/100 Banana: 30/100 Tomato: 15/100 Lemon: 20/100

Take the What Fruit Are You? test by webkin and aaronr!

Another weird online test... shucks...

Btw, finished the mural today... finally going to get some rest if not for classes starting tomorrow... shucks... Life is a bummer... but work I shall... break in a week's time... need to get motivated... work work work... shucks... I am so sad...

Saturday, December 08, 2001

A tiring day... and it looks like work may be creeping up soon... Oh ya... here's the results of the How British are you? test.

I am 60% British, just like
Sir Elton John
Roots in the UK, the rest of your hair is in the US.

Take the Brit Quiz at

Quiz written by Daz

Wha's with all these weird tests these days?

Friday, December 07, 2001

Just burned off some space on my comp... what a relief... I discovered a few things today.

2.16am: Attempt to get some cash from the ATM to buy a new hard disk. Learnt that ATM closes at 11pm... only in this campus... Decided to take a walk back to hostel.

2.24am: Gates leading to the hostels were locked. Hostels were surrounded by chain-linked fences. Only an 'open' campus like this one has gates to 'lock' people in or out. The next available route would be a long detour by cutting across the executive apartments [which surprisingly has no fences... now who are they trying to cage up?]. I decided that at such a late hour, I'd rather take the risk of getting caught by the guards to whatever may lie ahead in the darkness.

2.25am: Ponder over possibilities of getting to the other side. [By now, the hostel blocks were looming about three metres in front of me]

2.26am: Scale chain-linked fence.

2.28am: Barge into hostel room swearing and cursing at the idiocity of the whole situation.

Note: Moral of the story, chain-linked fences are not effective when it comes to keeping out the riff-raff.

My life is just so interesting... shucks...

I have been busy... My comp crashed recently... my life is in ruins... [nah... it ain't that bad... but bad enough...] I need to format my comp... I need to backup all my stuff on my friend's comp... I STILL haven't BOUGHT Christmas present's yet!!! [and I'm outta cash... again...XP] Recently did some Art test thinghy... here are the results...

If I were a work of art, I would be Sandro Botticelli's Birth of Venus.

I am a beautiful and alluring composition, not afraid to show off a good deal of bare flesh. People surround me and gaze at me with the adulation due a goddess and friendly breezes gently push me along my path in life.

Which work of art would you be? The Art Test

I shall write when my comp is up and running... now temporarily using a second installation of win98... my first installation was corrupted... sheesh...PC fair... here I come!!!

Monday, December 03, 2001

Only one day of freedom left! Shucks... Gonna have to say goodbye to good food... lots of sleep... and bumming around... come tomorrow... my freedom will be taken away from me and I shall have to slump back into the cage called education... life is ironic...

Been doing a clean-up of my room yesterday. Came across a lot of old stuff, including my infamous 'diary' notebooks. These are basically notebooks which I pratically wrote my life story. Comparing my earlier doodles with those I have now... makes me wonder if I've actually improved in years. Brings me down memory lane. But the most valuable thing I found when looking through stacks of dust, was a single sheet of paper. This paper was divided in half by a line, on both sides. On one side, it's written 'good' and on the other side, it's written 'bad'. These two columns list down my good points and bad ones. And crude as it may be... that single sheet of paper has changed my life and moulded me into the person that I am [whether it's good or not is up to the rest of you guys out there...]. I guess I'm just thankful to the person who made me write that. The best part of it was, the paper was circulated so that everyone in the room can have a go to tell you what they think of you. At the end of the day, when the paper eventually finds their owners, the experience is somewhat enlightening...

Shucks... there goes my weekly dosage of sentiments. Anyway, I gotta blog off now... seems like shopping trip is next on the agenda...

Sunday, December 02, 2001

Ever get the feeling that you're been left out of conversations? Lately I realized that I have not been keeping up with a lot of updates. Which kinda makes me ponder... have I been isolating myself lately? Or am I just not logging on often enough?

Home life is bliss.. lazed around most of my day... ate a lot... dreading to go back to the slave drive campus... Nothing much to write about.. and if there is... I'm definitely not in the mood to write them... I feel just so lazy right now... shucks... Maybe in a few days time...

To everyone... shucks... never mind... I really don't know what to say here... Take care and may you be well and happy!